I have been thinking about what it means (and how) to simplify one’s life the past couple of months. I know I touched on this a little bit in one of my beginning posts, but was wanting to write about it more today. So, I suppose this will be a bonus post, as I already typed up one about Mother’s Day…
I feel like my focus has shifted from what I need to focus on within the past several years. I think having a daughter with a chronic illness, days filled with medical appointments, medicine, and worry, I have found myself mentally lost, jumping around. Along with this, I feel this time in my life has also created a great shift within me, causing me to need different things, love different things. Not sure that really makes sense, but basically, I keep a lot of things around me, do a lot of activities, that really don’t serve me much in my life anymore. Part of this is because I don’t understand what to replace it with.
I have been thinking a lot about what I need to keep in my life, and what I need to introduce into my life, and what I need to be rid of in my life.
Crafts. Crafts have been winding around my bones, dancing in my mind for most of my life. However, I think that most crafts now swarm around me in a negative way. Crafts are expensive, time consuming, and attention controlling. I tend to be happy to start something new, happy while crafting, then it quickly turns to regret and loathing that I spent my time in the way that I did. I can’t quite explain why this ooccurs. Crafts have been the hardest thing for me to get in these most recent years, the hardest thing for me to let go. I am a very creative person by nature (drawing, crocheting, creative writing), but I find myself wondering if my creative nature needs to be spent elsewhere now, somewhere I don’t exactly understand.
So, one of my goals has been to try and refrain from crafting purchases, from pulling out my crochet hooks, from starting new projects and learning a new craft. I have done pretty good lately, I think. I have been tempted, but have discovered that putting my time and efforts into something else, leaves me feeling glad I left my crochet hooks in the closet. I am not entirely sure where this will lead me, but at least I am opening up space for something positive to enter my life.
Aside from that, I have been questioning myself about what exactly I want to have in my life. I was reading about how to simplify your life in some article, and it stated to ask yourself what you would bring in a suitcase if you were moving across the country permanently. What would I bring, aside from the necessities? I can think of all my belongings, and probably honestly say, I don’t have any huge attachments. I think that is probably a good example of how I feel like I have been mentally lost with where to place my passion.
One thing I am deffnitely passionate about is healing. I continue to explore healing through energy, and love it. I am beginning to feel a rekindling of hope that I will get further now that I am bring gemstones back to the table. I do want to keep this process and journey of learning in my life, and can’t wait to see where it lands me. I have known this about myself for several years, but this is a very heavy, thought consuming endeavor, and sometimes I just need to be grounded. I need to fill parts of my life with grounding activities that also add positivity into my life. This is where I get stumped.
So, what would I bring in a suitcase if I was moving, permanently? What if I did only have a small suitcase that I could bring along, filled with whatever I wanted? What do I love? What could I bring along that would help to ground me, but add goodness into my life and have me feeling that my time spent doing so would serve a purpose in my life?
To be honest, I am not sure, so I am just focusing on this summer.
What do I need this summer? How do I want to spend my time this summer?
- Spending time outside. I have been wanting to start daily walks, or at least making more of an effort to just be outside and breath in some fresh air. There is a lot of my OCD that comes into play when I leave my house, but I want to get myself in a place where I have a routine so that I can easily accomplish this on a daily basis, and hopefully have my daughters joining in alongside me as well. With this, also comes more family activities, and simply spending time together.
- Read. I do love books, and want to try to bring that into my life more now that I have found a genre I am enjoying (biographies). I have been struggling for years with what books I like, so I am really happy to be enjoying reading again. I also want to cut out on spending money on books, being more selctive and only purchasing at super cheap prices. Since it is biographies, I also want to start utilizing the library more, and get myself to a point where checking out books is second nature (as opposed to buying). I think I’d like to set a goal of reading 3 biographies this summer.
- Continue to write in this blog daily. I am finding that writing in this blog is something I have grown to look forward to. It is free, fun, and allows me to use my creativity in a new way that I think is beneficial for me. I am a thinker, a ponderer, and find that having a space to write it all out helps my mind. I also think of my little planner as coinsiding with this, keeping track of my days and appointments, and participating in a little diary deco fun with my daughters at the end of the day.
- Continue to purge things in our house that I personally own, to make room in my mind to focus on new things. This will be a little hard for me, not because I don’t want to let go, but because I feel like I have been in limbo with hobbies, and worry about getting rid of something I will ultimately want to come back to and enjoy again. This step may fall more after the summer, when I am more confident of what things to keep in my life, and what is okay to let go of… permanently.
I feel like this is a small step towards a more positive, organized mind space, that will allow me to find and feel happiness a little more easily. How do you spend your time? How do you create a world around you that keeps your mind in a positive, healthy place? How do you simplify?